Needing a boost

Do you ever feel inadequate as a person? That is how I have felt A LOT lately.
Family:
How do you juggle the schedule of a baby, husband, and have any time to feel like a person yourself? Instead of the mommy, wife, and a nobody.
Wife:
Do I show enough love, compassion when frustrated, will I figure out what to cook for supper in time for it to be ready when you get home?
Mommy:
How do I give you the room you need to grow up as an individual without smothering you with too much love. Do I tell you I love you enough? How do we provide for you in times of need?
Job:
Am I doing a good enough job at work? Am I a strong enough person to meet all the needs of the kids I work with through the week?
Friend:
Do I listen enough or do I talk to much? Do people really feel like they can truly talk to me no matter what?
Christian:
Sometimes people only see the Bible through someones life...and that scares me more then anything I think.
Too many emotions and questions rolling around...Hope all is well with everyone and you have a wonderful day or night depending on when you read this:)

A sign of Spring??

I took these pic the other day on my way home from work. As I was pulling in the driveway our lab met me at the end of the driveway just as two coons were passing by and she chased them up the tree. Made for a couple cute pics. Other then that I really do not like coons. They are very destructive. Hopefully it is a sign of spring as a lot of the animals are adventuring out as the weather is warming up.

Glad Kimber is home and not in the hospital.

Wow it has been a rough few days. I think I have now been up just about every hour on the hour since Fri at 4am. It is now Tue at 6 pm. and Kimber has finally started coming around. I took her to the doc on Mon because I was getting worried since she was not drinking and not eating much. The doctor then told me I could take her home and see if she was better in the morning but if she was not then we would be checking into the hospital. Ok so at this point I was scared and working on little sleep anyways so when the doctor told me this I was not sure how I was going to make it through another night. Waking her up every hour to try and get her to drink something. From about 2 pm - 2 am all she had to drink was about 1/2 and ounce of water. So I was almost positive that we would be going to the hospital this morning. I guess just as I was loosing the faith I was proven wrong yet again. Kimber woke up and wanted something to drink at 2am, 4am, 5am, and 6am. SIGH of relief!!! She only had water, cheerios, applesauce, and toast today so hopefully tomorrow she can start eating more normal food. Although at this point anything in my book is good and just glad it is something rather then nothing. That is a quick update for now. I should try to get a few more things done for work. I am supposed to work tomorrow so hope I have the energy to make the day.:) Thankfully this week is only a long day tomorrow then Thur and Fri should be shorter days.

So thankful for nurses at 4 am.

So it is now Sunday morning, and at about 4 am I called in a panic to the ER in town. Kimber woke up crying and was soaked. When I went to change her she was like a rag doll she was so limp that she couldn't even stand up. I had tried to stand her up to take off her undershirt and she just collapsed. At this point all I wanted to do was cry. I had been sick with the flu earlier in the night. Thankfully I kept praying that God would give me the strength to wake up and feel well enough to take care of Kimber. Even at 4 am I was feeling better so I was so thankful for an answered prayer. After the scare of her not being able to stand and her daddy taking her upstairs for a bath I called the ER and the nurse told me to watch her for a couple hours after she was up for the day and if she was not drinking or eating anything then we should bring her in. Thankfully she woke up around 8 again and wanted something to drink and a few Cheerios. I am hoping she is able to keep this down. Needless to say I will be calling into work tomorrow. Very grateful for a flexible job that will allow me to make up the hours later in the week. There are so many things to be thankful for in times of stress. A washer that continues to run hourly...a phone to call the ER...a flexible job...a good husband that got up and helped carry her upstairs to take a bath...and the list goes on. Its the small things in life that make a world of difference when you are scared, tired, and sick. Thanks for the prayers.

Tired.

Where to begin? Kimber has been very sick the past couple days. It started yesterday morning around 3:30 am/4. I awoke with a start, not sure what I was hearing in the midst of my sleepiness ...although through some intuition I already knew before I got to her bed she was throwing up. Turning on her night light I found these two very scared eyes looking back at me and when she saw me she reached up and started crying as if to say I am sorry mommy...I didn't mean to. The sound of her scared cry was almost enough to make me want to start crying for her. Augh...and that was only the beginning of that feeling many more times through out the next couple days. She finally stopped throwing up around 8:30-9 am. But she still did not want any food to speak of yesterday. It is about 3 on Sat and she has still not ate much. Today we have been struggling with it coming out the other end. I am hoping that it is almost out of her system and we can start getting back to normal tomorrow or we may go to the ER. I am mostly worried about her not wanting to drink today. Yesterday she would at least drink liquid. She has been sleeping a lot so I hope that will help her keep her strength. I know this is probably nothing compared to what some of you have been going through lately but to us it is kind of scary since this is the first time she has really been icky sick since she was born. For that I am very thankful. I am also thankful that my husband just walked out the door to run to town and get wipes for her. We had 2 full packages yesterday ... but as of an hour ago we only had enough for probably one more diaper change and so he is going to go to the store. This is one of the few times I actually wish we lived closer to town. When the little unexpected things pop up and you run out of something. That is an update for today. Not a very fun one but life happens and we just try to roll with the punches. Its about 7 now and Kimber is in bed and still not eating much. Dad is feeling fine still, and mommy is starting to feel sick to her stomach so I am off to bed. Hope this finds you well and healthy.

Round 2 of Kimber's Party.

Sorry there are so many pic. Just wanted to share with you that were not able to be here. Opening your auntie Toni's present.

Cool!!! She got me bubbles!!! And a couple outfits.:) Thanks!!! Your the best. We love you so much and hope to see you soon.

MOMMY!!! I want more bubbles. There were fun to POP! :)

Mom?? What's this? Baby?? Normally when you say baby they don't talk back. Humm??

Get him off of me!! (Hope she keeps that attitude till she is about 20) lol wishful thinking on mom's part probably.

Hey! That is my mommy.

Fine if I must be nice I guess I will give him a hug...now can I have my mommy back??

Auntie Toni, her nephew, Monica, and Kimber

KIMBER!!! She was trying to be sweet and give him kisses but ... mom was not so sure about that. A little too early for that.I love this pic. It shows how tall Kimber is. This little girl is 2 weeks older and when Kimber was standing straight up she was a head taller. She was starting to sit in the pic. But you can still kind of tell. Hope you enjoyed the pic of the party. I am not sure what happened to the date on the pics. It says 3/28/2040!!! yikes!!! They were really taken Jan 24 and 25 of 2009. I think when I transfered them it was changed since I was having trouble getting them onto my computer. Thank you to those of you that made Kimber's day memorable and special. We love you all so much. Thank you for all the wonderful gifts and everything you all do. The prayers, love and support. Untill next time. Hugs and Kisses...God Bless.

Kimber's Party!

Here is the start of Kimber's Birthday Party! She is mad because she wanted her cake. Now that she sees cake she is all smiles.

Yummy cake!!!
Presents for me??!!! YEAH.Can you tell I am excited?Freak out Kimber! So excited for presents!LOL...
Kisses for the frog.Hope you enjoyed some of the pics ... More to come hopefully soon. I am having trouble uploading pics from my camera so?? Not sure what the problem is but hope to figure it out soon. Have a good Tue. :)