Tired.

Where to begin? Kimber has been very sick the past couple days. It started yesterday morning around 3:30 am/4. I awoke with a start, not sure what I was hearing in the midst of my sleepiness ...although through some intuition I already knew before I got to her bed she was throwing up. Turning on her night light I found these two very scared eyes looking back at me and when she saw me she reached up and started crying as if to say I am sorry mommy...I didn't mean to. The sound of her scared cry was almost enough to make me want to start crying for her. Augh...and that was only the beginning of that feeling many more times through out the next couple days. She finally stopped throwing up around 8:30-9 am. But she still did not want any food to speak of yesterday. It is about 3 on Sat and she has still not ate much. Today we have been struggling with it coming out the other end. I am hoping that it is almost out of her system and we can start getting back to normal tomorrow or we may go to the ER. I am mostly worried about her not wanting to drink today. Yesterday she would at least drink liquid. She has been sleeping a lot so I hope that will help her keep her strength. I know this is probably nothing compared to what some of you have been going through lately but to us it is kind of scary since this is the first time she has really been icky sick since she was born. For that I am very thankful. I am also thankful that my husband just walked out the door to run to town and get wipes for her. We had 2 full packages yesterday ... but as of an hour ago we only had enough for probably one more diaper change and so he is going to go to the store. This is one of the few times I actually wish we lived closer to town. When the little unexpected things pop up and you run out of something. That is an update for today. Not a very fun one but life happens and we just try to roll with the punches. Its about 7 now and Kimber is in bed and still not eating much. Dad is feeling fine still, and mommy is starting to feel sick to her stomach so I am off to bed. Hope this finds you well and healthy.

Round 2 of Kimber's Party.

Sorry there are so many pic. Just wanted to share with you that were not able to be here. Opening your auntie Toni's present.

Cool!!! She got me bubbles!!! And a couple outfits.:) Thanks!!! Your the best. We love you so much and hope to see you soon.

MOMMY!!! I want more bubbles. There were fun to POP! :)

Mom?? What's this? Baby?? Normally when you say baby they don't talk back. Humm??

Get him off of me!! (Hope she keeps that attitude till she is about 20) lol wishful thinking on mom's part probably.

Hey! That is my mommy.

Fine if I must be nice I guess I will give him a hug...now can I have my mommy back??

Auntie Toni, her nephew, Monica, and Kimber

KIMBER!!! She was trying to be sweet and give him kisses but ... mom was not so sure about that. A little too early for that.I love this pic. It shows how tall Kimber is. This little girl is 2 weeks older and when Kimber was standing straight up she was a head taller. She was starting to sit in the pic. But you can still kind of tell. Hope you enjoyed the pic of the party. I am not sure what happened to the date on the pics. It says 3/28/2040!!! yikes!!! They were really taken Jan 24 and 25 of 2009. I think when I transfered them it was changed since I was having trouble getting them onto my computer. Thank you to those of you that made Kimber's day memorable and special. We love you all so much. Thank you for all the wonderful gifts and everything you all do. The prayers, love and support. Untill next time. Hugs and Kisses...God Bless.

Kimber's Party!

Here is the start of Kimber's Birthday Party! She is mad because she wanted her cake. Now that she sees cake she is all smiles.

Yummy cake!!!
Presents for me??!!! YEAH.Can you tell I am excited?Freak out Kimber! So excited for presents!LOL...
Kisses for the frog.Hope you enjoyed some of the pics ... More to come hopefully soon. I am having trouble uploading pics from my camera so?? Not sure what the problem is but hope to figure it out soon. Have a good Tue. :)

Size Comparison

Pic on Left is Jan 25, 2008. LOOK Her feet didn't even touch the buckle:( sad. She is growing so fast!
Picture on Right was taken Jan. 11, 2009. The last day we used the baby car seat.

Kimber's Words by 1!!!

Kimber's Words by ONE!!!


1. Mama
2. Dada
3. Hi
4. Nana
5. Papa
6. Leia
7. Puppy
8. Happy
9. Yummy
10. Baby
11. Baba
12. Grandma

Yeah for warm weather!!!

It was above zero today!! Yeah it felt like a heat wave. So anyways this pic of Kimber cracks me up. She is so cheesy. Hope you enjoy, the wink.

Do you ever have days when you feel like you are just doing all the wrong things and then all of a sudden God opens your eyes to the smallest thing that you might be doing something right? Well that has been the last 2 weeks to a month of my life. There are days when I just want to give up. Then I go to work and families tell me things they are going through and I feel like I take so much for granted. We have a warm house, some food in the cabinets, and a healthy family. I find myself making a mole hill into a mountain. I know I should just give it up to God but I find myself trying ...and then taking it back. Its like I know he is big enough to see us through the storm but I am just not ready to let him. I want him to walk beside me, not carry me. No matter how weak and tired I am. I wish I was more carefree. I need to learn how to not sweat the small stuff. I know God will take care of us no matter what I do because ultimately I am not in control. I just pray the issues we are struggling with are not questions we have to wait to find the answer to for very long. Its making me sick and my headaches are coming back mostly from all the stress.

So after all of that said I have to look at this pic of Kimber and smile with tears in my eyes. To me its like a child can give you one tiny look or smile and they suck all the "stuff" you are going through right out of you for a few seconds. To me those few seconds are what have kept me going the past couple days. To know that as much as I love her, God loves us so much more...it makes my heart hurt in a good way. :)

I hope this finds you all warm and well. It is almost 10:30 and I need to pick up around the house a little. We are having Kimber's party on Sat and if anyone showed up at our house before then they would probably think a tornado had been here. haha Kimber loves all her toys and she has to have all of them out to play with and have them all scattered around the house...never in just one pile!:):) Love the creativity of a child's mind at where they find to hide things. Good night.

Kimber is turning ONE!!!

Wow the last year has went by so fast! For that matter the last 5 years have gone by way to fast. I have enjoyed reading a few friends blogs over the past few months so I figured I would give it a try and see if I can keep up with weekly posts at least.

Eric and I will be married for 5 years April 17th. So I am looking forward to that date. But, before we get there we will be celebrating our daughter Kimber's 1st Birthday. Jan. 23. It took us so long to be blessed with having this precious child. Yet, over the past year she has taught me so many things about myself, people, life, the future, and what is truly important. At first it was frustrating to me that she was such a mommy's girl she would not fall asleep unless it was me holding her, she would barely let me out of the room to shower! Talk about spoiled:) Now when she is ready for bed you just have to give her a nuk and her blanket and she is happy to go to bed for 12-13 hrs. Now there are times when I miss rocking her to sleep and the long lost hours of just holding her. She is so busy now that I am lucky if she will lay her head on my shoulder for 5 sec!:) Life passes by in the blink of an eye. There are so many things that I have enjoyed from her first word being mommy, taking her to Washington D.C. when she was 5 mo. old, watching her wait by the door for her daddy to get home, and watching her play with our puppy, Leia. She has been such a happy baby I hope she carries her laughter and that sparkle in her eyes into life. She is hooked on music so you can guess who she got that from. When there is music on and she likes the beat she will sit an bop up and down on her knees. Now that she is turning 1 I am sure we will have many new discoveries once again.

Life has changed dramatically for us over the past year from getting used to a new routine and the day to day joy she brings in discovering the simplest things. I never thought you could love someone so much. Loving a spouse is so much different then a child. They are both great kinds of love you can give and receive but so very different. There are days when I feel as if I am failing at both wife and mom. Yet, I pray God will give me the courage and strength to keep trying and to be a good wife and mom. So I pray that you and your children are safe, warm, and loved this coming year.

The pic on the left is Kimber in her new carseat from Nanner. THANK YOU!!!

The pic on the right is one for fun. She is finally getting some hair and it is WILD after bath time:)

Hope you enjoyed the first attempt at our blog and all is well with everyone. We will try to keep you posted.